Monday, March 22, 2010

Make Preparations

I need to fast. This emotional trauma has made me lose so much focus. All my energy has been enveloped in this tragedy for what has been nearly 8 months. Divorce is ugly. It is draining. It is painful. It is heartbreaking. If you have never been through one, don't. Just don't.

Twenty more days until this "waiting period" enforced by the state will be over. Twenty more days...

But they that wait upon the LORD shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings as eagles; they shall run, and not be weary; and they shall walk, and not faint.
- Isaiah 40:31

I am exhausted. But, I know that I need to not grow weary. For the next twenty days, I will fast from all of this chaos. I will shift my focus and begin preparing myself physically, mentally, emotionally, and spiritually for the blessings that I know will soon abound.

"For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.
- Jeremiah 29:11

Thursday, March 18, 2010

Oh, what a blessing...

If one feels the need of something grand, something infinite, something that makes one feel aware of God, one need not go far to find it. I think that I see something deeper, more infinite, more eternal than the ocean in the expression of the eyes of a little baby when it wakes in the morning and coos or laughs because it sees the sun shining on its cradle.

-- Vincent van Gogh