Sunday, September 6, 2009

A New Journey

I always said that I wouldn't be a blogger, but here I am wanting to share this journey with anyone and everyone who wants to take the ride with me. I am recently a new mother of a beautiful baby girl, Mahlia Rheann. The journey to conceive was an arduous road full of multiple surgeries, chemical menopause and fertility treatments; but well worth the little miracle God has so graciously blessed me with.

As we all know, where one journey ends another one begins. When Mahlia came into my life, I was excited to be able to enjoy the blessings I had been given: a precious little girl, a beautiful home and a loving husband. Never would I have imagined that only a few months later, I would have to face the most heartbreaking betrayal I have yet to suffer. Three weeks ago, I learned that my husband had fallen in love with another woman and that he wanted out of our marriage. Hearing those words come from the one person I thought would always be by my side was agony. As any mother would, I tried to salvage our relationship. I placed my heart in my husband's hands and told him that I wanted to fix what was broken between us. We had been trying to work through this for the past two weeks, only to find out just three days ago that he had once again betrayed me. Driven by my anger, I went to a lawyer and initiated the steps to file for divorce this past Friday. So, this is the new journey I now face.

I'm sure some people are wondering why I would want to share such an experience so publicly. But documenting all of this gives me hope to think that someone out there might learn from this journey, whether it's someone I may never meet or maybe even my own daughter twenty years from now. I have always believed that everything happens for a reason and although this difficult situation may not make any sense right now, I know that He will carry us.

2 comments:

  1. He will carry you both. And keep your faith, God has bigger and better plans for you. Jeremiah 29:11 is a great passage.

    I love you and I love this blog. It made me cry already.

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  2. I too love this blog and will follow it, not only as your friend, but as a woman who is entering into a marriage with hopes of bearing children.

    With knowing how much you two loved each other deeply it is a constant reminder that no one is invincible from neither God’s Will nor the Devil's temptation. I am currently in prayer for everyone.

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